Struggling to Write
It’s been difficult to write, especially to write anything worth posting…
Sometimes I feel so empty. I want to pour myself into my writing, but I feel as though there’s nothing there to give. I feel like a bad writer.
I feel I’ve lost my creative spark. I used to have words come to me and write poetry so easily and liked what I wrote, for the most part. Now I try to write a poem and I can’t make out more than a sentence. I try to write these essay things, whatever these blog posts are, but lately I can’t finish a piece.
My need to create is still there, but instead of being able to do it, I anxiously procrastinate as days turn to weeks, and I haven’t written in a month.
Even now, I feel I am censoring myself, that I can’t just let go and write. I write without a point or plan in my head, so anxious to get words out that mean nothing.
Do you get this feeling?
I guess I just needed to post something before I burst. Even if it was not really much at all.
I suppose it can still become something: a wellness check.
Drink some water
Have a snack or a meal if you’re hungry or it’s been too long
Brush your teeth and hair if you’re able to
Wash your face or freshen up if you need it
Alternatively, if you’ve got the time and energy, take a bath or shower
Make sure any pets have clean water and have eaten
Make sure any children have had their needs met
Check your plants hydration or get a friend or family member to if needed
Hug a pet or friend or family member or stuffed animal (or yourself!)
Have an uplifting and/or casual chat with a loved one
Do a few dishes if you’re able to
Spot clean if you’re able to
Take a nap if you need it
Most importantly, be kind and gentle with yourself. You are doing your best, and I’m so proud of you! Don’t give up, but don’t push yourself too hard either. Remember to breathe. Relax. It’s okay to slow down sometimes.
Are you okay?
You will be.